71 - Confessions of a Dangerous Mind

Today’s Episode Might Be The Series Finale.

I say might, because holy shit, does this take a really dark turn. We first go into what is making Jordan so sad lately, his aspirations, and just slowly, over the course of 90 minutes, he just goes into the entire history. From TikTok going from Stand Up Sets to “Mr Beast Games”, to YouTube going from Honest Reviews to Influencer-Driven Infomercials, to the sad world of getting nostalgia over the dumb shit you are guilty of doing 12 years ago. It’s all here.

In a text based quick-fire summary of this whole episode.

Mom is still in need of care, so I am away from keyboard, it sucks, because i would love to talk more to friends or get more creative. I can still text on occasion - HEY I WROTE ABOUT REALITY SHOWS RECENTLY

Last year, the flight of fantasy hit me and tying to figure out “Hey, How do you make a G4 in today’s world, but NOT CRASH AND BURN” and that that was a good month in december.

Therapy has not helped, and drugs aren’t really good at the moment when you need to be “focused” taking care of a loved one, so uh, things sort of suck now.

I have ideas I would LOVE to do, but I am weary it will be “too little too late” by the time I get around to them., especially as every year, a thousand more youtubers show up, and you’re now in your mid 30s.

Those Three Ideas are, and ITS REVEALED TODAY

A VIDEO GAME SHOW - I don’t really want to go into this in length, but Digitiser Level 2 was such a good watch recently, that it sort of brought back that “wait a minute, you can make a segmented television-style show on the internet” and REALLY opened my idea on what I really want to do when it comes to the oversaturated world of “Video Games on the Internet”.. Reviews, sure. But I think I got something that makes me feel more like a “host” and less like “HEY THATS JORDAN 64!”

A GAME SHOW - GAME SHOWS I SUPPOSE WILL CONTINUE I think if I don’t talk about game shows, in some capacity, the world might blow up. But I have two ideas for game shows that I want to try out ON THE INTERNET, one that is “Low Budget” (probably better on a YouTube) and another that’s “High Budget” (that will probably never get made, but is SUCH A GREAT IDEA!)

A SHOW ABOUT THE INTERNET - I think it has become unfortunately my other crutch, that I am known for talking Internet bullshit. And I have always wanted to do something that felt like a cross between “Charlie Brooker’s Screenwipe”, “Last Week Tonight” and “Computer Chronicles” that was all about the streaming shows, the content creators, and poking fun at trends online, without feeling like the old way I handled it when I did Busy Street.

Oh yeah, and then a good chunk of history with Busy Street, and the pros and cons about it, and just seeing the “Nostalgia” of the dumb internet thing.

AND THEN GETTING REALLY SAD ABO(UT IT ALL BECAUSE I COMPARE IT TO EVERYTHING ELSE

Video Game Show - because events like people upset about Xbox putting stuff on playstation is “bad” (even though Playstation is on PC, and most games need as many ways to play them just to break even) and yet not having the time to get into events like that, because, again, see the top shelf. (Hey parents of babies, is this how it’s like in your home? Give me advice!)

Game Show - It takes time and energy to compile it together, and most likely will NEVER EVER EVER HAPPEN, even if you had free time and money to do it.

Internet Show - Because, again, “Let’s Talk Internet Culture” is either seen as a “hey, remember this cringey thing?” or internet drama (which is mostly damaged individuals hurting others instead of confronting their problems - like true crime podcasters not letting go of their first boyfriend.) AND I DON’T WANT TO BE ASSOCIATED WITH THESE ASSHOLES AND I DON’T WANT IT TO BE AS MEAN AS IT ONCE WAS.

Which leaves me to this podcast, that only serves to update the public - and I got nothing. Hopefully in the future, you’ll see some more text things, and maybe a new podcast episode of GSIS, but otherwise. I have to sit out for a possibly long time, and eventually, when the bad thing happens, i will grieve, and then hopefully bounce back. and get one of the best support groups ever - PEOPLE LIKE YOU! <3

Anyway, TTYL,