I just took a nap around 7:10pm, and woke up at 8:20pm. I am still drowsy, but at the same time. I felt the need to update this website.
Why? Because I reminded myself this is MY website, this is really where I need to just clear my thoughts and talk about everything in my head, for better or worse.
I am pretty much an open book on a ton of things, and I figured I might as well recap everything I done so far (It's been a while)
First, I messed around with the Family Guy Yourself generator, because that is something that usually pops up every couple of years, becomes someone's twitter or facebook avatar before being deleted in favor of some anime or something.
I also did that Google Arts selfie thing, and as it turns out...
That's right, I am very ugly... or maybe not worthy of portraits, but who knows?
Anyway, I have been trying something a bit different, instead of waking up with a mocha frappe or a soda (yeah, i am one of those weirdos), I decided to change it up with "Celsius", when I first saw Celsius, I was 19 and really really chubby, and their stuff was in bottles, and it was crazy with the caffeine, I do remember crashing horribly after an hour... and it turns out they redid the formula (or maybe I just grew up, because i am almost 30) and brought in all sorts of new flavors.
The purpose of the drink is to "Raise Metabolism", but I am somebody who isn't really on a diet (unless you count my constant desire to try out all these new "protein snacks" - like holy cow, Muscle Muffins are great!) but I am trying to exercise and try and eliminate that groggy feeling I get in the morning (it's like what I am experiencing now, but way way worse)
Anyway, I tried a few of their other flavors, such as the Grape Rush and the Mango Green Tea, and they are very very good, but I gotta caution myself because they are intended for dietary needs, i limit myself to one and only one a day.
Other than that - I bought some more equipment, and mess around a bit, I am avoiding the gym currently solely because it is new years, and it's also when there is so many hawks out there, not to mention my constant hatred of P.E./Gym classes also resonates inside these Gyms. As somebody who has gotten solid D+, and put a ton of effort into things but because I couldn't do X reps in X minutes.... yeah.... it felt good to do my own thing,
What I decided works for me, is "Multitaskers" - that is to say, stuff that has use even when you are not using it. I feel like Alton Brown, but less likely to force a chef to cook using only KFC sporks.
For instance, those "pull up bars" you see on door frames, I also use at night, to get my clothes sorted for the next day (place the hanger on the bar, it's right next to the bathroom, you're good!) I am pretty sure, I would annoy some fitness trainer, but it's also a good reminder to maybe use it?
Also, recently, I wound up with an awful awful cramp on my leg, it's one of those muscle strains that might be the cause of dehydration, so I am trying my best to drink plenty of water, and doing more balance-based activities. (That does not involve a slack-line, as i do not have trees anywhere to tie one up) It really does help.
As for stuff I watched...
Besides watching Batman, Batman Returns, Batman Forever, Batman and Robin and Batman Begins on Netflix (It was recently uploaded) I was gravitated to last week's "Awesome Games Done Quick", a wonderful event that showcases video games in short time, and presents a positive image of video games and the people who play it.
It's livestreaming is all-ages, with little to no cursing at all, to it's celebrating of the games presented (every "run" is a positive experience, even if it was considered a "bad game") and it's all for a good cause - Prevent Cancer.
Sometimes, you just have to look at positive things that make a difference, to feel better.
Get rid of that negative, and turn into positive.
Turn your Cinema Sins into Cinema Wins.
And because of how casual, yet how skillful the event was, it was an all-around positive experience (aside from the grumpy gaming comments section, but that's why I just turn off comments)
Finally, I decided to just promote my Sarahah account a bit -
I use that website because I think I want to have some form of "communication" that isn't just my email or twitter.
If you're looking for business, you most likely have my email or phone number, and know where to contact.
If you are looking to try and troll or harass or just be a nuance on twitter - more than likely you've already done that, or we're blocked & muted.
But I feel that with this Sarahah, it's all anonymous (at least I think so?) and you get some really nice comments and messages of encouragement (which is nice) mixed with some of the usual garbage.
Just imagine getting upset about the grammar on someone's rambling nonsense website. I mess around in Final Draft all the time, I know when there is a problem with syntax, or the proper spelling of "taqueria" (although google insists it's spelled equestrian)
Not to mention, it's not really positive, it's not really helping me out, as a writer. Improve my writing where? Should I proof-read before posting? Something like that would be much much more helpful than insulting 4th Graders.
Another thing that isn't really positive - telling somebody to "give up" on something. It never helps anybody, it honestly, just makes whoever wrote this look bad, in comparison. Much like the last one, it has some sort of assumption about me - that I am doing nothing with my life. Which hey, as somebody who gets these bursts of depression from time to time - feels like I am doing nothing.
But every once in a while, I burst into this creative mode and do so many projects, or get a call or email and work on something, and that just feels really amazing.
Just because I am not doing that much on the internet except snide tweeting, doesn't mean I'm not doing anything.
I'm playing Mario Kart 8 Deluxe AND snide tweeting.
But having stuff like this, is what makes it all worth it. Even if there is these spots of negativity, somebody out there does think I am great.... they also wonder where Bucky Barnes is. I am not Sebastian Stan, how am I supposed to know?
I also get great questions like this, which is really tough to answer and maybe I will answer them in more details later on here, but for the time being
Book - I read a ton of non-fiction, the ones that are weirdly fascinating. I have been digging Atlas Obscura, one of my favorite websites that is now it's own book of fascinating locals and history.
But I also really enjoy reading Worst Case Scenario books, because it's that fantasy of pretty much doing any of those crazy stunts safely with little to no danger (do you punch a shark in a nose?)
As for fiction, I am a sucker for Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, and it was fun growing up on early message boards talking about that book.
As for Movies, I have a Top 5, usually one is always in the rotation.
Currently 1. Back to the Future Part 2
3. Shaun of the Dead
4. Demolition Man
5. The LEGO Batman Movie
It's fun to see them rotate, and see what drops and what jumps up at any given time
And video game - solely a single video game, would be Crazy Taxi, it's fast-paced and fun.
But I really enjoy the Devil May Cry series, as well as Mario Party, so it's kind of hard to choose just one.
Burnout Paradise was my Game of the Generation though.
And finally, it just feels nice to get messages like this every once in a while, those words that come from the heart, and encourage you to get better, the negative thoughts, the negative messages, are nothing, because you make so many other people happy, and encourage you to chase those dreams.
I have a few goals in my life, and I am always trying to chase them down, and I am glad I have people online and offline that are helping me out with that.
I leave you now with one of my favorite clips from one of my favorite game shows in recent history.