Blogging Via Phone

Hello Internet! It's me, Jordan. Typing away on my website.

It's been a long, long, time, nearly one full year since I stopped writing on my very website. I know! I actually pay money for this. But all I've been doing was podcast hosting!

Anyway, I've been updating constantly what's been going on personally in my life. But the best way to describe it is “family emergencies 24/7” and it's just been brutal. My sleep schedule has been broken. And I just can't seem to be motivated to do content

I've played fall guys, for nearly three months, before just giving up.

I've gotten into Fortnite, but just lost the motivation to play video games, let alone movies and just about everything.

The best way to describe it, is that because everything in movies, gaming, television. It's all meant to be consumed ASAP, it's all meant to be reacted towards ASAP, and then there are those that have been part of the content creation Internet creator system for so long, that it's mostly now easier ways to make content, because they are overwhelmed with how YouTube runs them to the ground.

Or even worse - everything MUST be meant to be some kind of “culture war”, and when you've spent a good decade of your life trying to explain media priorities, explain criticism, and explain trends.

It's really difficult to want to return, when your modern comparisons are either Video Essays, People who haven't grown out of that “Angry Video Game Nerd” reject persona.

Or the very worst of the worst - the political commentator that gets upset by “everything being woke”, whatever the fuck that means. They are all pissy crybabies that aren't worth your attention, but because they cater to an audience of pissy crybabies that believe everything must cater to them - and have built a personal army of somehow less intelligent whiny pissy crybabies - you just sort of give up trying to get into the media criticism department.

To make matters worse, game journalism, has pretty much become very few and far between, every journalist outpost has been bought by a company that expects more and more viewership, and stretching the journalists thin. It's not about “an honest review of a video game” (that might alternate sponsors) and it's no longer about news about video games - everything MUST BE REACTED.

YOU CAN'T RECAP WHAT WAS THE NINTENDO DIRECT

You can only watch on the bottom corner and react to whatever was announced, OH BOY METROID! HOLY SHIT IT'S ZELDA.

But, and here's my thought, if everybody does that - then how is the creator special? As every day, there is a new content creator out there, a new voice of media, and yet another kid trying to do every challenge known to the Internet for the sake of becoming “the next Mr Beast”.

It's really annoyed me for quite a while, and I honestly have wanted to figure this out in quite a while, but it's all content creation, and while I enjoy Rooster Teeth and Smosh and FunHaus and think these are people doing the best they can with the circumstances.

Everything feels like cotton candy - it's just fluff, nothing substantial, meant to be enjoyed for the moment and not again.

Do people want to listen to a three year old podcast about movies? What about a game review where the guy says how great it is, then months later, forget they played it or just cave in and say “well it wasn't good”.

That's the thought I have had for decades, when I started game shows I suppose, I wanted more “long standing” podcasts to listen to, but I ended it after nearly 4 years, because I sincerely couldn't continue.

So much research, and struggling for guests, for the turnout that was less than most videos on the Internet.

It's worth giving up. The worst part about all this, is because I have a degree in television, and have written my whole life. And tried to have this on-camera personality - everything requires social media.

And, there are days where I just wish to log off forever, and hope I can somehow still be a success in Hollywood. But, instead, YOU NEED THE INTERNET, YOU NEED A PRESENCE ONLINE.

and why? So your head can get sad by turnout? So social media people fuck you up in the head that you face burnout time and time again?

Since I last posted via text, Elon Musk bought Twitter and turned that website into a really shit app. Just the equivalent of a boomer saying “RE: RE: RE: RE: Transgender Owned By Patriot LOL” with an AOL email address.

And I wanted to know “hey where do I go now?”.

I have tried twitch, but I can't afford the time to set a schedule and play games or watch stuff for a few hours every day (or every other day)

I can't really do YouTube anymore, even with my long time attempts to do reviews and criticism, it takes so much time to edit a video, and when I have maybe 2 hours a day to work on it. By the time I record something, you won't see it for months.

Luckily podcasting takes a couple hours, easy edits and that's it. But I know that I'm not the go to background noise for people. And plus - everybody has a podcast. It's very competitive, and again, I feel like giving up.

So that just leaves this. A blog! I say I will write more, but there are days where I just give up in writing as well.

Even if my blog doesn't have sixty popups, ads all over the place and banner ads, it's still not worth it.

Plus, why would you read? It's a guy sad posting. It's just not worth it, I think?

We've all moved on, and I feel like my time online has grown up without me, and that means just giving up altogether and figure out my midlife crisis.

Maybe I should get really into Disney California Adventure? Or talk pro wrestling? Or just continue what I've been doing, talking about video games, exactly like what it used to be, assuming Every Game Magazine is gone, every text outlet pivoted to video and podcasts, and just every once in a while say “hey, that jeopardy show is neat.”

Anyway, hope you enjoy this new website, I'll try and fix some stuff here and there.